Random Thoughts Of A Nobody by Fayil Shaukat

she flows through my thoughts....

she flows through my veins....

she has captured my heart....

she has captured my brains....
Random Thoughts Of A Nobody
Random Thoughts Of A Nobody by Fayil Shaukat
she is the reason for my smile.... she is the reason for my pain.... she is so simple.... yet she got me going insane.... she made a home in my heart.... started living in my eyes.... beautiful has become every dream.... beautiful is every sight.... changed is my day.... changed are my likes.... I’m rendered completely helpless... she got me under her might.... am in love with this feeling... even wrong feels right.... all roads lead to her.... whichever way I choose.... she has become my destiny.... if I had 3 wishes.... I wish I wish I wish.... she is always next to me.... she is the food for my thought.... for my breathing she has become the recipe.... to get to her.... has become a kind of test for me.... but I’m going to put my heart n soul into it.... I’m going to give it the best of me.... don’t know what is it that we have.... don’t know where it’s going to lead me.... clueless.... lost.... restless.... I’m all of these.... believe me.... hope is what drives me.... I hope like I do.... she also needs me.... my heart....my feelings.... I hope she is able to read me.... I hope.... someday eye to eye she sees me.... and says.... what I have been going thru.... she is also going thru the same.... and the reason for that is none other than me.... THE DOOR BELL I'm kneeling I’m reeling I’m caught by your spell.... In love with this feeling.... Which is so hard to tell.... My heart and my mind now no longer jell.... It's my love which to u I'm finding so harder to sell.... In the strange dump of Deja vu's I just fell.... Got my emotions all trapped in a cell.... You don’t open the door of your Heart forever I have been ringing the bell.... I'm kneeling I’m reeling I’m caught by your spell.... In love with this feeling.... Which is so hard to tell.... You don’t open the door of your Heart forever I have been ringing the bell.... SKY & EARTH You are the sky….and I am the earth…. You are a star….and I am the dirt…. And We can never meet…. Cuz there are just miles…. Just thousands of miles between us…. I admit it… I’m addicted to you…. just a sight of you…. For me acts as cocaine…. I should have taken notes but didn’t…. It’s true…. love is equal to pain…. I lost my heart…. I lost myself…. I only lost…. I never had anything to gain…. I never went looking for you…. I never did…. Out of nowhere I got hit by your train…. Though it fell before…. but after knowing you…. I even fell in love with the rain…. I poured out my heart in front of you in its purest form…. But still somewhere you found it with a stain…. You had already arrested me…. captivated my soul…. But I could never cuff your heart in my chain…. You shook my world…. turned it upside down…. But I couldn’t rock yours…. not even by an inch not even by a grain… I think maybe you are too good for me…. Or maybe I should have never played this game…. You are the sky….and I am the earth…. You are a star….and I am the dirt…. And We can never meet…. Cuz there are just miles…. Just thousands of miles between us…. WITHOUT YOU Nothing is the same without you Everything seems to be changed without you I’m living life in a different lane without you World appears to be insane without you The morning sun doesn’t shine the same without you That alarm clock doesn’t whine the same without you The sugar tastes a little less sweet without you Going through the day feels more like a feat without you That movie doesn’t offer the same thrill without you Even fun also seems to be so ill without you That phone doesn’t ring the same without you Everything seems to be so boring without you Nothing is the same without you Everything seems to be changed without you I’m living life in a different lane without you World appears to be insane without you That burger doesn’t taste the same without you My favorite coffee also seems to be a waste without you That song on the radio sounds so slow without you Every feeling inside of me feels so low without you Those birds also don’t cheep the same without you Even the cute smileys seem to weep without you All the Stars shine a little less bright without you Dull seems to be each and every sight without you TIME FLIES Time flies…. don’t know why it always is in a hurry…. With its passing…. all we gain is more worry…. One life is all we have…. don’t know why we live it in a flurry…. Time flies…. don’t know why it always is in a hurry…. From the time we are still in our mother’s wombs…. The world out there is ready to drop on us them bombs…. Falling and fumbling we roll into our schools…. Only to develop ourselves into mere fools…. Giving up on our dreams….to pursue an unknown path…. Losing our innocence to competitions wrath…. Trying to learn all the latest trends…. Trying to fulfill the desires that would never end…. All we do is fight fight fight a lot…. Cuz success is the only option and failure is not…. While in this life we chase different kind of status…. All we do is put our life in more & more hiatus…. We become doctors…. engineers…. but what we still never find…. Happiness…. love…. that peace of mind…. We need money…. we need cars…. all we do is need…. Can’t help it…. cut we are bitten by this virus named greed…. all of us…all the time…. are running jumping like in a race From our birth to our final phase…. While we still try to figure out what X is to Y…. Whistle blows…. time’s up…. it’s time to die…. And the question which still remains unanswered is…. Why…? Time flies…. don’t know why it always is in a hurry…. With its passing…. all we gain is more worry…. One life is all we have…. don’t know why we live it in a flurry…. Time flies…. don’t know why it always is in a hurry…. CRY Here I am…. don’t know why I wanna cry.... I’m trying my best to hold back.... but tears are about to roll down my eyes.... I’m telling myself.... don’t worry.... you will just be fine.... it isn’t helping.... don’t know where have I gone.... this is not the way I used to live my life.... each day is passing by like.... there is nothing in it for me.... don’t know why it has become so difficult to survive.... feeling of loneliness has crept into me.... even when I’m surrounded by people.... don’t know why.... I have friends.... who are always there to hold my hand.... they always try to cheer me up.... but maybe I’m not able to make them understand.... they are like.... what’s wrong.... why are you so low...? I have no answer.... all I say is even I don’t know.... they say there must be sum reason.... for this change that we see.... how can I explain it to them.... when I myself feel like.... I’m not the same me.... heart has become so heavy....I’m just about to burst.... jus wanna lay my head down in someone’s lap.... and cry from dawn til dusk.... I guess.... its jus a rough time...that everybody goes thru.... I’m normally tough.... but even I’m left with no clue.... hope it passes by....and I overcome this pain.... and it will have to.... no matter how dark the night is.... the sun always rises again.... EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT it might take a little time…. Sometimes maybe even years…. it may even make you cry…. In the end you are going to relish even these tears…. Whatever you are going through…. Your problems maybe big & dark as night…. Just remember the morning is always bright…. Just have some faith & belief…. Cuz someday everything is gonna be alright…. We may get this life for free…. But it isn’t easy as one two three…. Every now & then it will knock you down…. Just get back up & hold your own…. Yes, it will make you suffer a lot of pain…. Take it like it is your only gain…. People out there will be ready pounce on u And make you fall…. Bearing the weight of expectations…. Move ahead even if you have to crawl…. In this journey…. Many a times your heart will break…. Yeah yeah even your faith will shake…. But don’t let these hiccups slow you down…. Don’t just let them put a brake…. Maybe even no one understands your plight…. It’s all about survival…. & you have to fight…. With your fists held high…. be ready to throw them punches left & right…. No matter how great a problem you have…. And you may think like no one cares…. How can you forget…. There is always the one upstairs…. Just be patient and have some belief…. Cuz HE will guide you through…. Even if…. it might take a little time…. Sometimes maybe even years…. it may even make you cry…. In the end you are going to relish even these tears…. Whatever you are going through…. Your problems maybe big & dark as night…. Just remember the morning is always bright…. Just have some faith & belief…. Cuz someday everything is gonna be alright…. IN SEARCH OF NOWHERE I’m in search of nowhere.... In pursuit of something.... I have Been Fighting all this while.... What I have won is nothing.... For Miles I have been walking.... Even the roads I have paved.... Still I have not reached the place.... That my heart for so long has craved.... Don’t know exactly what I want.... Don’t know exactly what I yearn.... Don’t know why I’m looking for something.... That I’m never going to earn.... Part of me has accepted it.... But part of me still has to learn.... I’m in search of nowhere.... In pursuit of something.... I have Been Fighting all this while.... What I have won is nothing.... DREAMS Dreams…. Not one but we all have them But most of us never give them a chase With every passing sleep they become more bigger But we keep living our life running in a hopeless race We are so busy in being something that we don’t want to be Faking it all the time…. Lying to ourselves…. That fulfilling our dream is not our cup of tea. One Day…. One Day we will make it… Every now & then we go through this gust But in search of this one day years pass by & All our dreams just keep on collecting more dust What are we afraid of…. we won’t get this time again…. Don’t our dreams deserve one chance…. Even if all of it goes in vain…. Why do we think our dreams are too big…? If we can dream it…. we can do it…. Forget about the world…. For once…. To ourselves we are going to prove it…. No matter how herculean it seems…. we will give it our all…. Even if we take tumbles along the way…. Crawling…. we will rise from each of them falls…. Nothing in this world is impossible…. GOD has made all of us great…. Let’s take a small step towards our dreams…. All we need is patience, effort and a huge leap of faith… MOTHER For me.... you went through nine months of pain.... your endless nights went in vain.... you always gave me the sunshine.... you were my umbrella in the rain.... with time no matter how much I change... to you I always remain the same.... whenever I was faulty.... you were the one who took the blame.... you make me feel like a superstar.... it's like I have got all the fame.... always.... you are like a shield.... you guard me.... you always keep me safe.... you fight against the world.... to put a smile on my face.... when I wasn’t feeling good.... up all night you used to stay.... whatever the situation.... for me your lips always pray.... every time.... endless love on me you shower.... you are my strength in my sorrow.... however, wrong I may be.... your trust in me is thorough.... I know.... many times I hurt you.... sometimes I disrespect you.... I’m sorry.... but I never meant to.... whatever I’m today.... its only cuz of u.... there is nothing in this universe.... that is going to be enough to thank you.... I wish.... I wish.... I wish.... I can always keep you happy.... like you have always kept me.... but right now all I can do is.... thank you.... thank you.... thank you.... thank you mother.... WOMAN We all come from a woman.... get our love from a woman.... get our so called proud sons from a woman.... our homes are run by a woman.... we all are fed by a woman.... we share our best relationships with a woman.... a mother, a sister, a beautiful daughter is a woman.... so tell me....... why do we hunt our woman.... play with our woman.... take from our woman.... why do we rape our woman.... molest our woman.... every time just try to fake our woman.... so why can’t we.... do something for the sake of our woman.... why can’t we change ourselves for our woman.... protect our woman.... respect our woman.... come let’s take a stand and save our woman.... they are a gift.... if we don’t preserve them.... all we are going to spread is omen.... POLITICS All the vows are taken.... but the benefits are never reaped.... all of us are infected.... cuz the whole system is diseased.... we are the ones to blame.... cuz we place them on these seats.... don’t know why we always.... vote in favor of these honest cheats.... they promise us water.... then why most of us are still thirsty.... they promise us roads.... then why our journeys are still bumpy.... there is still no sign of eradicating poverty.... our nights are still dark.... cuz there is no electricity.... but still.... we lay our future in their hands.... but our wishes they never grant.... our youth are still wandering.... cuz they are never given a chance.... and guess what.... food is getting costlier day by day.... like its some sort of gold.... how do they expect us to survive when.... on our basic necessities we have no hold.... and.... rich is getting richer.... poor is getting poor.... salt is turning into a mere powder.... sugar is turning sour.... criminals are roaming in the open.... whereas they should be behind bars.... one scam after another.... everyday serious fun is made of laws.... what can I say.... my country is full of flaws.... at last... Mr. Politician.... all the promises you make.... please try to fulfill some.... life is already complex.... don’t make it more troublesome.... these are your people.... please don’t neglect them.... after all.... everyone isn’t born with a silver spoon in their mouth.... they also have a life.... please make it living worth....

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